I want to make my Father proud…….

It’s 3:00 a.m., New York City, Marriott Maquis, room 3917.  I went to bed at 9:30 pretty tired, woke up at 2:00 a.m.  Wired, excited about Friday, wait a minute it’s already Friday.  I worked on the blog (Cheeseburgers in Paradise),  for about an hour, went back to bed, God said, “Get back up, I’ve got something I want you to write down and share!  For those of you that don’t come here often or just started reading this blog, I didn’t actually here a voice, but in my spirit it was clear, what He was telling me to do,  was not just for me.  I don’t know who this is for, but I’m sure He does, so here goes….

How do you want to be remembered?  I’ve not spent a lot of time thinking about that, but honestly, when a friend leaves us, and more of mine are starting to do just that, I do think about this.  My earthly father, William Pelle Fortney, told me many years ago, “No matter what you accomplish, or how much money you make, if you leave this earth without integrity and honesty, you’ve failed!”   After  years of being a Christian, and reading the scripture, I’ve come to the conclusion that God tells us the same thing, and this;  (this is God speaking),

” I love you, I care about everything in your life.   I know you are imperfect,  but I still love you.  I sent my only Son to die for you,  so that you might be forgiven for all your sins.  I want you to trust me with your life, I want you to find comfort, and peace in my strong arms.  I know you want to do it all yourself, but my dear child, you can’t, but I can help you to be all I want you to be,   You do not have the wisdom, strength, or ability to succeed, but  I am standing at your door knocking, please let me in to your heart!”

I don’t know why this came to me in the early morning hours, I do know I want my earthly father and my Heavenly Father to both be proud of me, I don’t want to disappoint either one.  I know I can’t be that man I want and need to be in my own strength, but I know through God I can be moving that direction in my life.  I know God is not interested in my being loved and accepted here, just in His eyes.  When I go to be with Him, I pray that at least this could be said of me, (my words),

“He was an honest man with integrity.  He loved his wife, his family, and his friends.  He had time to show God’s love to everyone he came in contact with, and the lives of those he touched were better for him having been here.  He wasn’t the greatest photographer, or writer, or blogger, but he always tried to be better each day.  I’ve known few men that were more at peace, and filled with joy.  I know these things for certain; He loved His Heavenly Father, honored his earthly father,  knew Jesus deep in his heart, and was guided by the Holy Spirit!  He went to heaven not wanting anything more than what he was already given.”

If I can leave like that, I will have had a wonderful life, far more than I deserve…….

the pilgrim