Witness

witness |ˈwitnis|noun

2 [ intrans. ] ( witness to) give or serve as evidence of; testify to : his writings witness to an inner toughness.• (of a person) openly profess one’s religious faith in : one of the purposes of his coming was to nerve the disciples to witness to Jesus.

Yesterday I shared about a monumental spiritual battle I’ve been watching, and been involved in my self.  I’ve had several close friends call and ask if I was o.k. and if I wanted to talk about the situation. First and more on this later, yes I’m o.k., actually much better than just o.k.  Secondly I can’t talk about it because to describe what the situation is about would expose a lot of other people who are party to the conflicts.  My purpose is not to bring hardship on anyone, even if they are acting in the wrong way, but to pray for them, and pray that they wake up and see the destruction they have caused.  As I shared yesterday, my first reaction was to attack back at the perpetrators.  After a lot of thought, prayer, and talking to a trusted brother, it became obvious that as much as I would have enjoyed, (temporarily), the satisfaction of “getting even” that is simply not God’s way.  I’m so thankful for that, I can’t imagine how terrible my life would be if God chose to “get even” with me!

Today I want to spend a moment on the results of following His way.  First a scripture to base our conversation on;

I’m going to share something deeply personal in the hope that it will speak to your heart.  The battle that I have been waging (spiritual) had robbed me of my peace.  Peace comes from being fully in God’s will.  I wasn’t.  I was angry, I knew terrible wrongs were being committed against people I loved. and I wanted to put a stop to it.  The problem was I was inventing ways to solve the issue in my own mind and strength.  Once again, that is not God’s way.  If you think about it, If we can’t trust God to solve the problems we face, would would be the reason to follow Him?  If in the end, we had to do all it ourselves, He wouldn’t be God!  But He is!  In all of this God has never changed, but I did, I was counting on myself.

The other night after writing the blog entry and spending some quiet time with Him, I told my wife I was going to the bed to pray.  When I was a little child my mother and father taught me to kneel at my bed to pray, to this day it is my favorite place to bow down and seek Him.  Kneeling for me in an acknowledgement of His majesty and authority.  I would bow to no man, but find it comforting, and proper to bow before Him.  So I bowed at my bed and started to pray.  The prayer went something like this;

“Father I know I have been wrong to try and resolve these conflicts myself, I can see I couldn’t change the people involved, including myself, even if I tried with all my might.  I know that only you can change our hearts.  I don’t want to win or be right, I want to be yours, ands serve you.  I want to love my enemies as Jesus loved those that crucified Him.  I release these people (I named them) to you.  I trust you to deal with the circumstance and I know you love them and I want them to be on their knees before you as well seeking your will in their lives.  I want to handle this myself, but I know  I’m wrong to feel that way, and I am letting go of this through your strength and in order to be obedient to you.  I’m so glad I can turn to you when I know I’m powerless to change the world I live in.  I love you Father, thank you for loving me, and forgiving me.  In Your Son’s Precious name I pray.   Amen”

Most of that prayer was prayed with fits of uncontrollable sobbing.  God broke my will, and touched my heart deeply as I let go of the situation and gave it to Him.

This is my witness.  I slept better than I have in months, I awoke feeling free and knew God had control of the situation!  I’ve had a peace that passes all understanding since that prayer.  I know He is working out the solution to this issue as I write this.  Is life easy?  No, we are faced with constant conflicts, sorrows, and pain, but we have our Heavenly Father to turn to and seek His love, forgiveness and the wonderful peace that comes with a relationship with Him.  Best of all I do not constantly rehash all the awful details and think about what to do.  I know God is at work, and He will prompt me to act, in His way, when the time is right.

Have a wonderful weekend, spend some of your time seeking Him, I can promise you the results will be peace and great joy!

the pilgrim