How much do you love me?

1 year, 2 months ago 18
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When Wesley was a little boy we were standing in the front yard, I had my camera shooting pictures of him just playing and I asked him, “How much do you love me?” he immediatly stretched his arms wide until his little chest was pushing forward and said, “this much!”


It’s hard in times like this to not to want to ask God, “do you really love me?”  I haven’t and I never will!  Let me tell you why.


God gave Sherelene and I three wonderful children and we got to keep Wes for 45 years.  I will always treasure every second of that time.  I’m thankful we did not loose him sooner.


God loved me and you so much He sent his “only” son to suffer and die so that we could be forgiven of our sins and have eternal life.  When I think how much I’ve suffered knowing Wes is gone from here, I can’t even imagine sacrificing Him for anyone else. What an incredible, impossible sacrifice He made for us.  Yet HE did.


I still have Scott and Diane, Hannah and Ben, Rhonda and Elijah and Abigail, Catherine and Clint, Cassidy, and Cade in my life and I treasue every one of them.


God allowed me to marry the most beauftiful and loving women in the world and through it all she is still here almost 50 years later. I’ve spent the last fifty years trying to figure out how on earth I pulled that off!


Lastly for the last day I’ve heard and read written words of sympathy and love for Wes and his family, Sherelene and I over and over, hundreds of times.  No greater thing than real, true freinds can any man ever possess.


I sit here in my office this morning wondering how on earth could anyone be so blessed as I am.  Then God spoke strongly to me in my spirit and said, “Because this is how much I love you.”


I am cradled in the arms of God,


the pilgrim

18 Responses

  1. Mike E says:

    Amen to that!

  2. i was so sorry to hear that Wesley has passed from this earth ,however it’s gratifying to know that you and your family are as blessed as you are. Keep up the good work and good things will always come your way. I hope to see you on our paths through life in the near future. Richard

  3. Bill Fortney says:

    Me to Richard, I miss you!

  4. Nick Coury says:

    The Lord is using you, Sherlene and your family as a witness to untold amounts of people. Wes impacted people in his life and in his “graduation to healing.” Thank you for your loving, caring, teachable spirit. But most of all, I am blessed to call you my dear friend and brother in Christ. Praying for you all day today and days to come. I love you, Bill!

  5. Brenda Keyser says:

    I am awestruck at the resemblance of Wesley’s pose to the cross. Wesley has been transported from his earthly family to the arms of his Heavenly Father. He is in good hands. Love you all.

  6. Bill my prayers go out to you, your family and Wesley’s many friends. I’ll say a Novena for you all here in Virginia. You and I discussed how everything happens for a reason a few years ago. As you spend more time at home and with your beloved wife…I know God will make you an instrumental piece in helping Wes’ children continue to grow as Wes would want them to go. You’ll guide them on the path of submitting to God’s will. The blessings received by their father Wes from God the Father, will pass through you the grandfather to future generations. I have no doubt about it for God is good all the time.

  7. John says:


    Sorry to hear about Wesley. I can’t imagine what is like to lose child so early in life. My Prayers are with you and the rest of the family.


  8. Opal Trivette says:

    What an awesome tribute to Wesley and our Lord!! Such precious memories!! Keeping you in my heart and prayers. Much love forever friend ❤️

  9. Dick Ginkowski says:

    Wes was the man and father he was because of the man and father you are, my friend.

    I think God understands that it isn’t easy to immediately jump up and shout praise when you feel as if you have been kicked in the stomach. If you need anyone to lean on, we are here for you.


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